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March 27th, 2012.

They say “Home is where the heart is.” is this why every time I’m away from you I feel completely home sick? My stomach knots up, it becomes harder for me to breath, I feel empty and in-complete almost. I’ve never once felt like this about another human being, I know I’ve already posted about this before but ever since I was a little girl I never imagined I could love somebody, I never imagined myself spending my life with someone and marriage was completely out of the question. I’m still iffy about marriage, I don’t think I’ll ever get married but at least now I can picture myself spending my life with somebody. I only feel complete when I’m with him, without him I’m lost. I always tell myself “don’t gain feelings.” “don’t get attached.” and now I’ve done both things…I’m really unsure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing, I’m absolutely terrified of what could happen if things don’t work out between us, but I’m so intrigued to see if they do.